A haunting

(3:41:44 AM) Ben Tagg: because you know me

this is haunting me, even though it’s taken out of context

and i’m so fucking tired of people telling me to block him on my IM list, i will do no such thing

Ben Cohen

you know who i think is hot?

ben cohen

look at that face

Rugby

i would smaketh dat

This turned out longer than i had originally planned.

*stolen from a facebook bumper sticker… kinda*

Dear 4:29 AM,

We’ve got to stop meeting this way.
I’d much rather sleep with you.

Love,
Jon

ok, what else, what else

I’ve found a renewed interest in the dune series after that HORRIBLE second book. I’m now reading the prequels starting with House Atreides, which is turning out to be quite the layer upon layer of twists. Two more prequels and then it’s on to the third book, “Children of Dune”. Hopefully the series will come back alive again, because i  can’t stress enough how BORING the second book was.

After finishing the Dune series i have two more high-priority series I have started but not yet finished:

Books left in the Dune Series:

Books Left in the Prequel Series:

• Dune: House Harkonnen (2000)
• Dune: House Corrino (2001)

Left in the Original Series

Children of Dune (1976)

God Emperor of Dune (1981)

Heretics of Dune (1984)

Chapterhouse Dune (1985)

Legends of Dune:

• Dune: The Butlerian Jihad (2002)
• Dune: The Machine Crusade (2003)
• Dune: The Battle of Corrin (2004)

Continuation of the Original Series:

• Hunters of Dune (2006)
• Sandworms of Dune (2007)

The Sword of Truth

5 books left:

• The Pillars of Creation
• Naked Empire
• Chainfire
• Phantom
• Confessor

and
Otherland

3 books left

• River of Blue Fire
• Mountain of Black Glass
• Sea of Silver Light

Now if I can get all of this reading done this summer, i will be very proud of myself. I don’t even want to think about how many thousand pages that is… but they are all good stories… so … we’ll see!

I now have a job in Frankenmuth, at the leather shop. I’ve met some of the people that work there and think that this will be both fun and financially helpful.

The weekend was great. I got some good volunteer service in (amazing how strenuous physical work in the morning can make you feel like you’ve really accomplished something), played a bunch of Magic: The Gathering with Carter and Colton, read almost a whole book, played some PSP, watched the stars, listened to the rain, watched the stillness of the lake, and successfully kicked some ass (with carter as my partner, of course) at euchre (those old fellas can just be too cocky, it cost them the game.. and their pride).

Vassar City Band has started back up and I’d like to extend an invitiation to anyone interested in playing in a summer band that has graduated high school. The music we play is mostly above what the group is actually capapble of, but we have a lot of fun and play some challenging and exciting scores (Procession of the Nobles, The Cage (circus march), James Bond Themes, Mama Mia, some Ticheli stuff …..) so if anyone is interested come on over friday night from 7pm-9pm at to the Vassar 6th grade band room. Instruments that they are in need of are trumpet, clarinet, trumpet, saxophone, trumpet, bassoon, trumpet, percussion, and trumpet  but if you play something else you are just as welcome.

I’ve been playing a lot of piano lately and am starting to gain back some of what i lost in the years since i was totally serious about piano. I played through most of Liszt’s Hungarian Rhapsody #2 (made famous by the cartoon “Rhapsody Rabbit”) as well as the piano reduction of the Last Five Years. I’ll be pulling out some more music tomorrow, including some saxophone accompaniment parts like Bozza’s Aria, and well, i’ll look and see what else i might be able to actually play. I would really love the piano reduction of Wicked if anyone has it!

I’m going to the chairopractor tomorrow, and that should be AWESOME!!

ugh

great concert tonight, those that were involved! i was proud of you guys, and it this has definitely shown improvement!

on another topic, i am so effin’ tired of acting and being high-minded, one of these days i’m just going to burst out with a big F**K YOU to my
ridiculously-negative-all-the-time parents

they are definitely having an effect on megan

but i know that blowing up at the parents just adds to the negativity, so i’m doing my best to hold it in

at least i’m going to tapico this weekend, however brief because mom is afraid to drive megan to competition by herself (“it’s just a long way for me to drive”)

dad needs a break from her i’m sure, and this is going to ruin it knowing that he has to leave early and ask the people going with us to leave early on her behalf

ugh

i’ll vent to carter this weekend, it’ll be good for me

i’m going now

smilin’ bob

I LOVE ENZYTE COMMERCIALS

that mindset

This is almost assuredly linked to just watching the silence of the lambs, but does anyone else ever get the feeling about something little that they notice, and this feeling causes you to be completely disgusted with some person or situation….

i feel like that right now.

and there is more than one such instance

but on to happier things, i have an interview tomorrow in Frankenmuth and i’m pretty sure it’ll go well, i met the interviewer when i turned in the application and we seemed to click.. as in we talked for a long time about pretty much nothing

i downloaded and played the trial version of age of the empires III and i have to say that i am impressed, age of the kings is still the best in the series, there is no topping that but AoE III is the twilight princess to the Ocaraina of Time that is AoK

Has anyone read more than the first book in the Dune series, if you have… i would really like assurance that the second half of book 2 is 1000 times better than the first half, so far it’s just boring me literally to sleep… so i’ll read another hundred pages or so, and then maybe turn to the three books about the three big houses (Corrino, Atrides, and Harkonnen) which i guess are some sort of prequel (plus they are partially written by Kevin J. Anderson, which is one of my favorite authors)

in other news, after taking my good time to organize, unpack, and clean my room, it is cleaner than it has been easily since new year’s eve between 05 and 06… it’s good, kinda feels like i am reorganizing my way of thinking or something

i’m going camping starting tomorrow night so i probably won’t be online until sunday mid-afternoon, except for a little bit in the afternoon tomorrow, which reminds me that i really need to pack… It’ll be nice to be out in the woods of tapico again, hopefully very relaxing, and i’m considering doing this thing where you (mentally) revisit your first conclave with the OA, by being a guide to the pre-ordeal members. This focuses a lot on meditation, self-examination, scrutiny to every detail, mental stimulation, and … well…. i can’t give away everything since it is technically for members-only…

you know, there has been talk of putting yourself in a certain mindset and slowly becoming that which you pretend to be, but it can only work so deep, at your very core you are who you are

pancakes for breakfast

today has been nice so far

for whatever reason i didnt end up going to sleep at all last night

i kept crawling into bed, and then back out of it because there was something ‘important’ (finish a chapter in a book, jot down a few ideas for an arrangement, just write one more paragraph of a story, look through my MTG cards for Nightmare, …. and so on) so i finally decided that no matter what i would stay in bed when i crawled in around 5:30ish… but of course

Megan gets up at  5:45

So i didnt sleep, i got back up and made pancakes for my then rushing out of the house family, then sat down and ate what was left over

i then played some piano and sax (i actually am keeping up with my practicing this summer so far, and it surprises me) and headed out to drop of a job application at Piechnik’s Greenhouse, from there i went into birch run where i saw 2 ( 2!!!) now hiring signs, so i applied at about 4 places in Birch Run, then went to Frankenmuth on a whim.

I parked at the River Place and decided i was going to walk around for a while. Not too far into my walk i spy yet another now hiring sign (remember that this is michigan and things like that are rare) so i went into the frankenmuth leather shop (which has some pretty cool stuff) and applied for a job there, and the person that does the hiring came out and met me *crosses fingers* so i’m hoping that something works out there.

On my way back to the car i bought myself $3 worth of freshwater taffy, and it is tasting very good right now.

I think today really improved my disposition towards summer, and was definitely good for my sanity.

Now, what can i make for lunch, something weird i think. TO THE RECIPE BOOK

*a later edit will detail what i concocted and digested*

President’s List

I made the president’s list at CMU, yay

I hadn't heard this song until today

so, pretty much nothing has changed since i got home, there was always stuff to do when i was up at cmu, but now i go through my day and feel like i waste all of the time

i made some awesome spinach and artichoke dip today, too bad i wasnt more hungry though, i definitely love that stuff

the job search goes on, but still looks grim.. if i don’t get one pretty soon i guess i’ll apply at wal mart and mcdonalds, two of the places i really didnt want to work

has anyone ever heard the song the closest thing to crazy?
i like it
How can I think I’m standing strong,
Yet feel the air beneath my feet?
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep,
Then break my dreams the way you do?
How can I have got in so deep?
Why did I fall in love with you?

CHORUS:
This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own…
And now I know that there’s a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.

How can you make me fall apart
Then break my fall with loving lies?
It’s so easy to break a heart;
It’s so easy to close your eyes.
How can you treat me like a child
Yet like a child I yearn for you?
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?

CHORUS

…and being close to you
…and being close to you.